Sci,
Please do not think that I am making little of your concerns, because I'm not, I only want to explain something to you,
I am responsible for all of those people, on board a space station, and ultimately those last remaining human populations that we come across, you have to take as many measures as you possibly can to protect them, against any harm from any enemy that wants to destroy them, including Braxxul, the Drej and who the heck knows who else. Humans are part of the living universe, or galaxies, as are other races, with whom you might endanger simply by coming into contact with them.
A job that is impossible.
So are we bettering their lives or causing their lives to come near death by contacting them? How do we know? How do we choose?
I choose to come to Talusia. I choose to help these people, I don't know them, or to use your words, to be their "guard", to be their guardian,
How am I supposed to keep everyone safe?
Takes a deep breath, and several more. I am hesitant to tell you this, I am not sure why, maybe its embarrassment, more then likely its because it has effected me so deeply that I haven't figured it out yet.
Takes several more deep breaths.After The Titan and the Yamato, had moved off to safety from Talusia, and Sin was off laying a grid, The Drifter and I went back to Talusia, we needed data for the Mayor of the Colonies so we could have a discussion on what to do with Talusia, and what to do with the Colonists.
The Drifter was scanning the planet, and the drej came back,
Several more deep breaths,Not just any drej ship, a drej mother ship, and we were hiding, and even thought we were hiding, the drej ship found us, somehow?! I don't know how, but they appeared as a hologram on the bridge of The Drifter, maybe they detected their engine signature, and guessed ?!? I don't know.
Several more deep breaths.
Then before my eyes, they destroyed the planet, they blew it up!
Its gone,
right before my eyes,
if I hadn't have choosen to come,
all those people would be dead,
if The Titan, put those people back on the planet,
all those people would be dead,
its bad enough the the living planet, and all the animals are all dead!
I spent, I don't know how long throwing up, sitting on the floor with my head in the toliet throwing up, until I couldn't any more.
How am I supposed to keep everyone safe?
I can’t. As much as I want to protect everyone I can’t.
You can't either. As much as we want everyone, and not only those we love to be safe, we can't keep them safe.
I can't always keep you safe,
You can't keep Sharrel safe, you can't keep Perrin safe, we are all in this together and it is the only way we can keep each other as safe as we possibly can.
I almost died, defending the colonist, and it was Oliver, & Sarrin, and ultimately Sharrel that saved my life.
My life was saved, those beings, worked together, and I'm here talking to you now, and it is the only way we are going to stay as safe as we possibly can from any enemy, by working and staying together.
As much as I still feel very ill from seeing the planet blow up, we all need each.
You don't need legs to love, and you will break Perrin's heart if you push him away, and that is not keeping him safe.